suffixation.
I am experiencing suffixation, without as much as a pinch of air to bring me from where I fell and I stay broken.. breathless.. emotionless. I cry for an ear just someone to listen to the story of my life and we could laugh.. bring back the sincerity I called a smile instead of the mask I plaster to protect my heart. It seems I have stumbled into the school for the deaf and the blind so who is to hear me? Who is to notice my tears when I turn the other way. Maybe I will just sit here and write about a love I can’t feel.. or maybe I’ll just talk to myself until I’m convinced what I imagine isn’t real.. My incapability to love has caught up with me and the fools reading my novels of a troubled mind flipping each page eagerly to see what happens next expect me to stay..stay in my state of unhappiness where everything I tried to be went unnoticed and faded away into a distance much like the sun fades from the moon. Am I inhuman? The need to be your everything was my drive and my downfall and here I am.. without as much as a pinch of air to bring me from where i fell and I stay broken.. breathless.. emotionless. Where was my hero when it mattered.. now that its too late. The demons that trapped themselves in my heart one by one circle around every intention you try to relay and all I see are lies and I can’t explain why. Just a little too late to love me.. Just a little to late to hold me.. I cry to the same God we all do.”Help me Lord to be better” send me someone that will give me all I deserve.. but every single time my prayers seem to go unheard and why.. reflection of the mind and revelations unfold.. the journey of me begins when my past I no longer hold.
